today was my cousins birthday. it started off nicely, the adults all hung out, I watched the kids. the kids went to bed, it was fine. there was a bouncy house and food. they had a pinata. the parents got drunk, and around 6 alot of them left. we stayed. I got to play football with a person who I respect and view as a father figure. that's never happened before, no one wanted to hangout with me or talk to me. the kids left me alone unless they needed me. no one's ever volunteered to hangout with me. or play football with me either. I've never had a parental figure actually want me around or hang with. my mom worked to much and I've never had an actual dad and mom's boyfriends never lasted more than a year. I didn't like them so they were forced to leave. my older brother hated me. my sister ignored me. so this may seem like a little thing to others but to me this is one of my happier memories. my mom brought my name up in several conversations she had with her friends. they where drunk and loud so I heard everything and was surprised when she said that I'm going to get a car before graduation. she called me responsible. they watched me play football. and complimented my throws and catches. I thought they'd ignore me too and they didnt. I lost the ball out of shock a couple times, but that's okay. no one left. I was happy. I am happy. I've never had others care so much for me. Yeah they where kinda out of it, but when your sober you suppress things when your drunk you let them out. I also met one of my aunts cousins. he asked if u was the one my mom was talking about. she had said that she was going to get me into college and save money for it. he wanted to know what I was planning on doing. I told him that I wanted to study criminology or tech support. I told him I wanted to because technology is such a big thing that we as a people are going to need more people who know technology. and I want to stop criminals, even if I use technology to do it. he brought up his step daughter who is 19 and said she had no motivation to do anything anymore. I told him it could be because she doesn't know what to do or what she wants. he said she could use a person like me in her life. he said that I have a motivation that she needs and that having someone like me could help her out. we had a whole conversation and he started crying. I asked why and he said it's cause he's happy to see that i know what I'm doing and why and do it. I don't know where I'm going with this I just know that I wanted to share. and if i someday forget and get sad I can look at this and know my life got better even if it was only for a day.