so me and david have been going really well and im like something has to go wrong and techincally nothing has gone wrong but hes thrown a huge curveball and normally i wouldnt get myself involved in one of these or i would be like fuck no tay get out of this because you can seriously get broken. but guys im in a fucking love triangle !!!!! the thing is im aware of it the other girl isnt. so pretty much me and david have been going swimmingly and he dropped a bomb on me the other day and he was like sooo i started talking to another girl on tinder (like wat the fuck people dont use that to get to know another person lowkey judges him) and they have been flirting a lot. i mean when i heard that i was like fuck my life im so stressed (i still am) and they are planning on meeting up on sunday and normally i wouldnt really care but shes got something huge over me and that is distance. i kinda forgot to mention that my crush/best friend/friends with benefits david lives 3.3 thousand miles away from me (im from rhode island and he lives in england fuk yes british accents) but pretty much hes told me before that long distance relationships are a lot scarier (he had a really bad expieriece) and would prefer a one at home one. and the girl he met on tinder is obviously fucking closer so im like shit shit shit what if they hit it off and im just thrown away like shit fuck. like i hate that hes doing this to me like its really an asshole move but i still really like him and cant control my feelings and our times together are seriously so amazing and tonight (he just hung up) we were just lying together and he kept talking about how he never wanted to stop talking to me and he was just begging i was there. and we seriously have such a strong unbreakable bond (like weve been through so much since the time weve know eachother) like even if were friends or a couple. BUT im actually going to england this summer to visit him so that is my time to shine but this hoe (shes not a hoe shes probably really nice but she likes my crush so its like ????) has a huge fucking advantage of meeting him. i mean is it bad for me to hope it crashes an burns. because tonight he was like "i really want you but i need to see me and the girl first" so im like fuuuuuck my life this fucking sucks. like hes like i really want to do things with you and they will probably happen unless something happens with the girl. so im really hoping that they are awkward together which is really horrible to say. so pretty much guys im a contestant in the bachelor and it fucking sucks ass. like i just want sunday to come by and figure out where i stand with him (ie its you or ie i want to talk and try things out with her and its like a huge killer in my mood and really stressing me out) sorry this is long but this is my vent and ill update you guys on what happens. its just so fucking stressful i hope you are never in this situation rn.