Even when she thought she'd lay down and die, when the world was witness to the infarction of her heart. A truth she'd known but didn't have the courage to admit. Unfortunately the explosion of truth could no longer be ignored. She searched that hole in her chest often filled with self doubt, loathing and disparity. Somehow deep in that hole she found a tiny flickering light and held on. She used her tears to water her dreams, her pain to fuel her drive, glimpses of the past misery pushed her forward. Success was the flame and she did in fact survive. She build success on the back of regret. No longer wishing to know what could have been. She lives for her and for the new knowledge of the day.