At the weekend a friend of mine wanted to meet me and we were going out for some drinks. Two friends were coming a hour later and they were meeting us there.
We had a few drinks and I don't know why but the alcohol was really getting me. I wasn't drunk. But a little bit more swipsy then normaly. I was and will never be really drunk. I know my limit and Iam scared to go further than being dizzy and talking and laughing to much.
So after we were finish with our drinks, we where going and driving home and I was waiting to get driving home by someone and while I was waiting I have texting my love. I was so dizzy and did so much writing. I was crazy. And to my suprise, he was texting me back. So we end up texting each other til 3 o' clock in the night. I had the feeling that maybe we did make a little bit progress. But we just talking about regular and normal stuff.
And he said that he is in talking mood. So.. maybe my hope is groundless. :(
But I was happy and I have the feeling that writing to him and getting a response is a big help for my change...
But at the same time Iam scared to hurt him. Scared to say something wrong, to make him sad or disappointed. So I have a weired feeling like opresses or outlandish if we were writing. I don't know, the feelings are missing in the text messages. Thats kind of sad and I don't know how to handle this right. But Iam trying to write like I always did before I was broken and destroyed.
I really hope that he has a positive feeling about this night.