I don't know me anymore. Who I am and who I was. I want to get back to my old self. But there is no way. I can not even if Iam trying. The shy woman who cares about everything. Who try to make all things good and better. The person who is so kind and gets used by everyone. How can I change myself to what does not exist anymore? In few days Iam 26. I need to be selfconfident and extrovert and so on for my job. So how can I be the person I want to be and I was?
If I really wants to be her again.. I need to cut every contact I have. I need to lose every friend and every connection to everyone. Maybe.. then I can be her again. This stupid little girl who is afraid and embarresses about everything and everyone and even can not look into eyes.
Would be that okay?
I don't know. What should I be?
I have lost the only thing I ever wanted. Someone just for me, someone really special .