The Other Way
IT was my first time really…
You were a kid, you didn’t know lot of things
But we loved each other
I had pressures of life
I couldn’t make you feel
All those feelings, I used to feel every night
Before my eyes closing to sleep
And you thought, I didn’t love you
You didn’t complain
You didn’t make me feel, you used to feel bad
you just went away!
After several times, I begged you
After several days, I cried, restlessly
after I almost knocked the door of death
after I was broken, extremely inside
after everything in my dimension, I tried
you came back, yes my love you came back!
You came back, promising me lots of love
and that that you wouldn’t leave me ever
That wasn’t your fault, I accept
your life got crippled, due to troubles of ours
“let us be apart, & when the destiny decides, we’ll meet”
you didn’t say
you just looked for your own escape
and you went away!
I waited, I waited till earth dried, waiting for monsoon
and leaves turned yellow, to leave for new
I waited till the rain quenched earth
and new leaves made it rich again
I waited as same, for years…
I got dried, dried of every emotion, but not yours
I waited for you to come,
thinking “When life would relax its arms over you, you would come!”
and yeah, my love,
for my only fortune, you came
what a day was that and what a feeling I felt
both are extraordinarily unexplainable
you came like a thunder, questioning my love
I calmed you; I calmed you with my tears
You tried everything to so that I would say, “just go away”
you made me believe stories of yours,
which stung my heart
and then said, “oh dear, all those were but true...
“believe me for this time, I would never leave you...
…I promise to keep my promises”
Unbelievingly my life has started running smooth,
Alas! That was the tragedy!
you collapsed, your promises eloped
you told me you had someone else in your life
too much lovable that I was
that yes you realized my love,
but you had decided your life was not worthy of me!
You decided all, of your own
and went away
you broke me, again
you went away!
The fault wasn’t yours, the fault was in my stars
that you went away
Still, I felt good at your care “please don’t cry & forgive me”
though you knew, how hard for me was to
follow both or any
I forgave you that very moment
I forgave you….but how can I forget
that you went away….!
I would always walk into those,
my most priced, most possessed memories
and feel that inexpressible desired
to get you back from those memories
to get undone,
any or all,
the incidents which took you away from me
and feel that pain
the pain of your absence
but more killing is that fact,
not even you can deny that
you could have been with me,
and you chose the other way
YOU WENT AWAY!
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