No one reads this, so fuck it. I'm seriously goddamned depressed about what's been going on in my life the past two years. I feel like I completely wasted all that time, energy, and money getting a library science degree. I worked at my first and only real librarian job just long enough to pay off my grad school loans and to help save for a house. And then I quit to move back to Ohio for my husband's job and to have a kid. And now I've been looking for a job for the past fucking year and I've only had three interviews and working in a call center part time to show for any of that. I'm thirty-fucking-five years old. I should be smack-dab in the career I've worked for and I shouldn't be contemplating getting an associate's in something that makes more fucking sense. I'm so mentally exhausted from job hunting and applying and worrying about this. I feel like I'm completely worthless because I don't have experience for any other types of jobs. I got my masters in order not to be a dancing monkey, and being a dancing monkey is the only skill I seem to have. Along with my general life decisions in the past when it came to my education, now I'm second-guessing the move, the house, and our decisions for the past two years. I know I'm going through a shit time, and eventually there will be an end to it, but fucking hell, I'm having a rough time right now.