I've taken a long break from graphics and music making. Been glued to the video game Elder Scrolls: Oblivion like old times. Really just got on here to post that big post (---->
and tell you that everything is going good over here. Plotting my new Toxxik like in nature album. I haven't plotted like this since "I, Control" so several years.
It has also been really weird. I've been getting dizzy from listening to music and getting the toasted brain.
My good friend Alex is finally getting himself out of a rough patch. Besides my girlfriend he is the only other person outside of my family that I have.
I am a very antisocial person and only like to go outside after it rains to capture bird recordings just cause and my occasional Missouri Dogman investigation when I am looking for a scare.
What is weird for me is that I have a ton of animal recordings and will have more later this summer, I am going to the tiger sanctuary here in Missouri; I have only used a little bit of my nature library. I plan to use the tigers for new alien monster sounds as I have used up most of my analog robot cat sounds and it has been so long I don't remember how to recreate them on the synthesizer. That and the underwater hydraulics that I've been recycling around.
It is not so bad not having many friends cause a lot of them can go down the wrong path and then you are surrounded by bad influences that you must try to escape if you are to make proper use of your life. I only have to worry about one friend now in case they fall. SO much easier. That's what happened to me.
High school friends: Gone (check)
98% life long fiends: Gone (Check)
Work friends: Gone (Check)
This isn't depressing, well kind of but I have found comfort in depression. It has taken up most of my life and I look at my girlfriend funny when she is in a great mood and I wonder what is the matter with her. It is so weird to see people happy in the world I live in. I hope that you got something out of reading this.