Mariah Carey Actually Invented Christmas
There's a minute until Christmas ends but since time is fake and I make the rules I can still date this post as the 25th. Anyway, I meant to write something yesterday but since I am again, very surprisingly busy this break, I did not get the chance to. I turned 20 yesterday which is wild. Felt lots of love and warmth from my friends and family. VB liked all three of the happy birthday messages I got in the groupme which is so touching. That's the real icing on the cake, except I don't really like cake I guess. If I had to choose I'd choose a pie which is actually what I chose for my birthday dessert. My mom made a very cute strawberry peach pie with a braided heart and it said my name on it, really loved it. Anyway, 20 is seemingly the start of a new decade for me. Again, time is fake but I'll play along for the theatrics and attention I got yesterday. To celebrate this new personal decade, I thought it'd be good to set some goals for myself. Decade long goals are really fuckin crazy like I don't think any of the things I plan to write down are gonna be applicable to the entire decade but I want to call them decade goals because it's dramatic. So one I had in mind was obviously to keep up with this blog. Currently, it's looking like it's gonna be a long 10 years here on ello.co because I am killing this goal. Even if it's not daily, which it isn't even daily anymore, at the very least I want to write something every now and then. Actually, I guess a better goal is to say improve my writing and this blog is only one way in which that goal is gonna manifest itself. Can't get better at writing if I don't write so I decided I'd talk about dumb shit on an obscure blog. Do you think this blog will ever become part of some anthropological study? The internet is far too vast for one but like in the future will they ever pick apart my diction and grammatical structure to gain a better understanding of human life circa 2016-2026? One can only hope.
Anyway, another goal: learn to use the DSLR coming my way courtesy of my cousin. I let it slip a couple times to my mom and sisters that I wanted a shitty old DSLR to learn how to use one and now by the graces of their work as well as my older cousin, he's sending me one of his old ones!!!! Ya girl is really about to start doing her own photoshoots. But first, I need to learn how to use it like correctly you know? The only problem is I think I'm only gonna be into photo composition and not much else lmao like I imagine my photography career will start and stop at portraits with full black tones and some nice composition. But if I master that then I'll count it as a success. Photography is actually a pretty good decade goal because you can have a lot of growth in art in 10 years. Didn't realize these were gonna be so practical to be honest. I thought they were gonna be like goals for my first month being 20 but I guess I have more foresight than I thought. Maybe if I get decent I'll start putting pictures with these posts. In the fashion of all things disjointed on this blog, the picture would have to have absolutely no context within the post and standalone as a separate topic and point of discussion in the comments section. I have standards to live up to on this blog and that standard is that nothing flow within a logical order. Anyway, the only last thing I had in mind was to really develop my fashion further. Basically all this means is wear more jewelry lmao. Well, okay so like during the semester I didn't/don't wear jewelry all that often and this was a huge change from high school because I used to run out the door in the morning in high school with my pockets fuckin jingling from all the rings I shoved in them so my dad wouldn't see me wearing them lmao. So I liked wearing rings and necklaces but then I got to school and I thought I'd start to look even gayer but I got lazier and started wearing them less. So basically what I'm saying is to not be lazy and wear more jewelry on a regular basis. If these are the only standards I'm holding myself to for my 20's then I'm gonna crush it. I'm here for the low standards.
20 is pretty old though. In the spirit of self-reflection, I have been thinking about what kind of person I've become these past 20 years. Actually, not really but I have been thinking about vegetables and how much I like eating them now that I'm an old person. I guess I just never thought I'd grow up to be a person who liked vegetables. When I was younger, as in like 12 and younger, I would see my older sister eat spinach and like... enjoy it and it was honestly such a gag moment for me because I thought how odd that old people are always raving about how great vegetables are. She wasn't even old lmao she was in like 11th grade probably. But to a 10 year old that's grown enough and she was eating spinach of her own accord which made her twice as old honestly. Nowadays I think spinach is such an accessible vegetable as in like, even if you're not really into eating vegetables you could enjoy something with spinach in it. It's accessible to a greater population, you know? Lettuce obviously takes the fuckin cake for being the most accessible but there are layers and nuance to it all. I guess I'm just trying to find the instance where I finally decided that I liked eating vegetables? If I had to pinpoint my journey into being a healthy person it'd have to be in 10th grade when I watched that one food documentary called Food Matters after hearing my tennis coach talk about it. That shit completely radicalized me lmao I had my mom buy me some spirulina and I started making smoothies with what was basically algae. I no longer indulge in spirulina smoothies but I think eating a meal without at least one vegetable in it is a complete disservice to yourself. Why deprive yourself of the nutrients as well as the flavors that come from a good vegetable? I'm not going to say that all vegetables taste good because obviously not all of them do, namely bean sprouts, but a lot of them actually taste good and are worth a spot on your plate. When did I openly like vegetables though? I think that's the first step to being grown. It's hard to tell but I'm glad I'm grown now. Being 20 is fake, but it's fitting since I so openly enjoy vegetables.
Hope you've all have been having a joyous holiday season. I think that's gonna be it for me tonight, and it's 1:33 am so you can see how god damn slow I am at writing these. Lots of love and as always, stay tuned for the drama of it all.