If I Only Used This Blog To Talk About My Crushes Would You Guys Get Upset
Maybe I'll think of a second topic but I had a great time with VB last night!!!! I mean before then I was having a pretty okay day like as much as I talked about how much my life was gonna suck it didn't totally suck. I finished my essay after working on it for like 19 hours with a two hour nap sometime in between. It was not horrible either so that was a very unexpected development. I still might have an A in Queer American History but I might not after I do my presentation lmao. And then after getting to hibernate for two hours I had to cram for my statics exam which was going to be a mess no matter what I did. The worst thing about getting a formula sheet is that there's so much pressure to make it the best formula sheet possible you know. Like there's so much pressure to have this golden ticket to an A by putting everything you can in the smallest readable text there is but like who has the time or commitment to make a perfect formula sheet????? And then, to make my formula worse because for some reason I am always trying to sabotage my grade in statics I put the easiest examples instead of the hard examples on my sheet. Like if I know how to do the easy problems they don't need to be on my formula sheet!!! But no, I was too lazy to write all the work for the hard problems and ended up fucking myself over when I got to the friction problem on the test. But before the friction problem I was doing THAT. Like what did I do???? THAT. Solid 75 on that test because I really think I crushed the other problems.
Okay anyway, so that's why my Thursday was going pretty okay because I finally made it through all the shit that had been the cause of my stress acne for the past two weeks and I was ready to have fun! The immense pressure to have fun on Thursdays can really take a toll when I have statics homework due the next day but not this week. I was going to have fun if it killed me. The bong last night almost did but first volleyball. I got to play volleyball with VB and actually I probably wouldn't have played if he wasn't playing last night. I watch the groupme like a fucking hawk in case he responds to someone asking people to play. If he likes the message it's done it's over. I have to play. I'm clearing my schedule and I'm gonna go play volleyball. If he had said hey guys I can only play at 7 pm I would've had to skip my statics exam. I can't tell you the amount of applied force needed to keep the frame in equilibrium VB said he wants to play volleyball!!!!! Anyway volleyball was fun, we played against some other group that was using the court for a little bit. They were just like recreational players so it wasn't really fair but it made him so happy to play. His reasoning was kinda fucked up lmao he basically said that he could go all out against these people because they were strangers so like if someone got hit by one of his spikes on accident he wouldn't feel so bad cause like who are they???? He has so much energy it's crazy I love it though like it almost makes me want to be as bouncy and hyped as he is but there's no fighting all the earth signs in my birth chart you know. He's an Aquarius so his like over the top energy makes a lot of sense it's just very refreshing. Anyway, more importantly about Thursday night was how touchy he was. I feel like you guys probably think we're really close to dating like everyone can feel our romantic chemistry but don't be fooled by my dramatic writing but he really was touchy last night. Lots of hair ruffles, he looked at the veins on my arms at one point because we both have very arms he actually gave it a name like a condition or something that's not important, he was touching my arms, he did this one thing I can't explain with words but it was very touchy. And then after volleyball I dropped him off! How cute, we're basically dating disregard what I just said we're in love and it's real. He usually likes walking back to his dorm but today he was particularly tired so I dropped him off and we talked a little and I found out he's in calc 3 and orgo which is like gag why are you taking orgo your first semester. I asked if he was gonna take diff eq next semester but he said he couldn't fit a math class in so I have time to get him to take diff eq in the e school so I can be his TA. Definitely stay tuned for how that train wreck is gonna go.
I was gonna talk about Number Amar for a little bit. I guess I will. Anyway last night I was baked which was great I was looking forward to it all week and it was great. Nothing bad to say about it. We discussed Number Amar while baked last night though and I think some people have it a little off. See Amar isn't Number Amar but parts of his life while high conflate with Number Amar's life who exists in a completely different universe to be honest. It's almost exactly the same as ours but instead of the Amar we all know it's Number Amar. That's why I can only further the story after we smoke because before then there's nothing in Amar's life that can give us into an outlook at Number Amar but also not everything Amar does while high is representative of Number Amar either only really specific pieces. Just some insight for us all. Maybe a new part is coming soon! We literally don't fucking know when it could happen but definitely also stay tuned for that.
I'm having a pregame in 30 minutes! Very exciting but that also means I'm gonna stop this here and get ready. And by get ready I don't know what I mean but maybe mentally prepare? I feel like you have to really psych yourself up before you host an event. Anyway, as always, stay tuned for the drama of it all and also all the rest of the shit I told you guys to stay tuned for. It's coming................... eventually.