Is It Nosy To Turn My Head Whenever Someone Walks Into The Cubicle Space?
I dunno I just feel like I could mind my own business but I’m also like right at the front of this office area so it’s inevitable that people see me on their way into their own spaces or to see other people. The only reason I am able to turn my head to look at who is walking in anyway is because I’m never doing anything real so like I have free eyes and they are curious as to what the rest of the office is doing but maybe I should start staying in my own lane before someone comes for me asking what the fuck I’m up to because there’s no way I could snake my way out of direct confrontation like that. But anyway, I had a nice long weekend. There was a lot that happened every day of the weekend some of planned some of it really impromptu. The most out of the blue thing that happened was going to the beach for a day with my mom and some aunts and uncles. I got back home on Saturday and then my mom immediately ask if I wanted to go to the beach and honestly I have been a little pale this summer you know sitting inside the office all day as opposed to playing tennis on the daily which I used to do every summer. So anyway, the next morning I woke up at 4 am and felt hollow on the inside to which I then had my funeral during the car ride to the beach because I was dead inside that car for three hours. I really really hate sleeping in cars though or planes or just upright on chairs. Like in class, sure I’ll take a quick nap if I need it but it’s never like I’m trying to get comfortable in class? But in the car or the plane, any extended trip really, you want to be comfortable when you’re sleeping and there’s just not a lot of ways for that to happen. It’s just not realistic. Just say good bye to your neck after having to sleep upright like ya maybe you can but your head back onto the seat but it’s not gonna stay there the whole time you sleep. Maybe you can slump down into the seat but that’s if you have that luxury leg space. So I was dead in the car and then woke up with like a slightly sore neck but we were at the beach it was the beach the ocean waves solve all. I didn’t do too much at the beach but I did finally get to start reading Half A Yellow Sun and let me just say it’s so so so good. After what I read by Hemingway, I forgot how good writing can be. Chimamanda’s writing is just so beautifully descriptive and I love the humanity in her characters and I don’t want to drag Hemingway again because I already did a book review but I’ve now read, well I’m only halfway through Half A Yellow Sun, but I’ve now read two books with the word sun in the title both of which lament war and both of which have characters who are rich and I’m not trying to explicitly say Chimamanda is doing way better than that old white man but she’s doing way better than that old white man. Also it’s sometimes just shocking to see how pervasive british colonialism is within the world like god damn god damn. They really fucked over the entire world. Happy belated 4th of July am I right America was just destined to carry on Britain’s legacy of colonialism. So in conclusion, my book review of Half A Yellow Sun so far is: very good and also wow fuck you colonialism as always.
I was also at Costco with my dad and sister this weekend to buy stuff for our cook out yesterday and, one, my dad asked me what beer he should get which felt like a trap. I know I drank beer with him in Vietnam but ever since then I don’t know if my relationship to alcohol with regard to my parents has changed at all. Part of me wants to say no because when we got back my mom was like it’s illegal so no more and my dad said something along the same lines. But my dad has also offered me a cup of wine with dinner ever since then so I really don’t know but I want to say those are still traps as well. So there we are in Costco, my sister has picked out the blue moon as her choice, my dad is looking for a third opinion, I’m standing there looking for the 24 pack of Stella which I do not see and suddenly he’s asking me what beer he should get and I???????? I don’t know who I’m supposed to be in that moment. Should I feign innocence and naivety or should I be the real me with a well formed opinion on piss water? So I just stood there and stared at all the 24 packs of beer not sure whether to say that mango wheat blue moon is actually a really Fun™ choice with regard to beer or whether to close my eyes and point randomly. If I truly had my choice though I’d scour Costco for a pack of Stellas which I saw earlier in someone’s cart and clearly the best choice would be Stella. We also browsed the wine section and that was yet another situation I had to carefully maneuver because I wanted to suggest all the pink moscato but I could not have a well formed opinion on wine either if I was to keep up with my façade whatever it looked like at that point. Anyway, I was also looking at all the dads in Costco because that is one of the best past times while out grocery shopping and idk I feel like Costco was kinda lacking on Monday? I guess maybe not lacking because I’ve never thought of Costco as standing out in terms of dad selection but if anything Costco feels like a prime store to be cruising for middle aged men. The international grocery store was just much better. I mean, one time I did see my middle school band teacher at Costco, like in passing I didn’t say hi because I quit band when I got to high school and he was really shocked about that, but anyway I saw him and also I was like in love with him in middle school as a baby gay lmao. My affinity for older men has stayed consistent throughout my life I can at least say that. That was definitely an interesting Costco trip. I think maybe a new segment of the blog is: cruising in grocery stores lmao.
Anyway, this weekend is midsummers which means a lot of fuckboy shit going on but most importantly before any of that is the HAIM album listening party I’m hosting Friday night. I’m so excited for the new album oh my god what a summer of music. Honestly I’m gonna do a preemptive album review right now: talented, brilliant, incredible, amazing, show stopping, spectacular, never the same, totally unique, completely not ever been done before. The coolest sisters to walk the earth. Ricky had a great idea for the party actually: we just sit in a circle in silence and take a shot after every song and I’m thinking that’s gonna be our MO for the night. There’s nothing more I want to do than just intently listen to the album. Nothing better than that. It’s actually a pretty big pregame though and also like half a birthday festivity for Jassmin so idk I’m struggling with how much alc to get for it lmao. I feel like I’ve been transported back to first semester hosting my first real pregame with a facebook event and everything and like I was just so unsure of how much alc to get. My only problem this time is sheer number of people and how fucked up everyone wants to get? Formerly, I would subscribe to the rule of halves and only expect half of the guests saying going on the guest list to actually show up but because I’ve gotten confirmation from like the majority of the guests that they will in fact be there I don’t know how much to prepare. Maybe four handles. Okay well this was kind of boring to write about but I’m very excited for this weekend because there will be so many friends around.
Anyway, I’m probably gonna stop there instead of try to force out some other topic. I was looking at new cameras at work again as always and Canon actually just released the SL2 which has………. Everything I want and now I’m seriously considering buying a new camera instead of a secondhand one off of ebay or something. Like, I was really prepared to buy a secondhand and as we all know I have been bidding on cameras but now I’m sitting here like gravitating towards that tiny body with an articulating screen and the price tag isn’t THAT bad especially for all those features idk like I am making coin this summer but I don’t want to spend it all? But maybe I should spend it all like who cares but what do I even need to spend it on? Why do I need things? Capitalism and consumerism will be the death of me. It’ll be the death of all of us really but anyway. Until next time, stay tuned for the drama of it all.