When You Don't Really Have A Handle On Life But For Some Reason You're Just Feeling Oddly Positive
Is it not a #relatable feeling? I don't really have a handle on things because holy shit next week is really gonna fuck me up but I have an okay outline for my presentation tomorrow and since that's the most pressing thing after this student debt teach-in I am pretending I'm handling things well. I want to play volleyball tonight but I really don't know if I can cause the presentation but since I've got like a shitty powerpoint kind of laid out I might as well kill more time right? Anyway, the only reason I'm writing this right now is because I'm avoiding doing things so let's keep it up. Last night Amar and I ran for like 20ish minutes which was disgusting. I didn't enjoy it and I got sweaty and I guess I got the munchies that night without feeling guilty but still a very bad decision. We'll probably repeat the decision later in the future and I'll be upset about it again. We ran by the dorm areas though and lmao you know ya boy was on the look out for VB just in case I like happened to run into him. I had to stay vigilant to accidentally run into him though so I was really scouring the area. I think I looked pretty good too, I had some extra forehead shine from the sweat and I wore some leggings under my shorts which was a look so I was ready to run into VB after our long separation but tragically I did not see him anywhere. This boy is so elusive. He's probably not and I'm probably the one that's actually elusive because I go home after every class so when do people ever run into me? Never. But I put myself out there last night and was not rewarded so that's kind of fucked up. Who do I have to talk to about reparations? Comment below if you know the email or phone number thanks.
Tomorrow starts December which is great because it means Capricorn season is eventually going to come and that means I'm going to get older. I will be 20 so I'll have to remember to update my age on grindr so that everyone who's 24 can hit on me and feel less bad about the age gap cause hey I'm in my twenties too no big deal. To the 40 year old men though 20 isn't much of a change so that's nothing special for them. Anyway, with my birthday comes a birthday dinner obviously and this year I think my birthday dinner is gonna be a week before my birthday which is like okay but it's for the best in terms of getting attendance. The real problem isn't the day but the location. I have to find a restaurant that can handle a large party of like 17 probably which sucks because like what restaurant wants to do that? Especially the nicer ones that are a little smaller and pretty busy on Saturday evenings like even if I call ahead to make the reservation it's just like... the people are probably groaning over this gigantic ass party. But I can't leave anyone out on my list so it's rough. The restaurant also has to be good and be very me and it's gonna be a real search to find the right one. I also need location to be reasonable for everyone but also cute because pictures are important and I don't want everyone to like look good and have shitty pictures. But I also think background could be negligible if we use a portrait lens and only do like waist up. I really love portrait lenses only because I've used one once and it took good pictures. I'm sure other lenses would also do well but portrait lenses, you know?
I had another topic for today but I'm quickly running out of time before I need to go actually do things for the student debt event tonight. But we'll just jot that down in my bullet journal and now I can be a person in real life. And as always, stay tuned for the drama of it all.