Am I Going To Start Consistently Going To Bed Earlier Now
Today's good things: volleyball was fun and my jump float was putting in werk, I woke up feeling brand new after a whole eight hours of sleep, I cooked a great dinner
I am honestly trying to go to bed earlier after last night cause that just felt so good like I forgot what it's like to not wake up tired. But anyway, I was hoping to see VB tonight but he unfortunately did not make an appearance. I think the distance has been helping me stay rational though because I'm less ridiculous these days. I guess I have nothing to be ridiculous about though and I'm sure the next time I see him which I'm pretty sure will be Friday I'll start going wild again. But for now, let's enjoy this period of clarity and balance in my life.
I was looking at my twitter icon today and honestly my skin is so good in that picture. I'm so upset that my face has been break out central this semester. Maybe I should see a dermatologist but also I'm very sure that if I could just remove all the stress from my life and sleep eight hours a night I would get my #clearskinprivilege back. This acne definitely isn't like puberty acne where I just have to suffer being ugly and hormonal it's more like your body isn't get the proper relaxation it needs on a daily basis so we're gonna make you ugly to punish you and your lack of time management. And honestly you think that would be a big enough motivator to like not do all my work after midnight but here I am, still working after midnight day after day. Or maybe my new face wash just isn't pulling its weight? But that doesn't make any sense because I was breaking out before I made the switch to a different charcoal-based face wash so it surely isn't the little bits of charcoal exfoliating my face every night. I'm reluctant to go to a dermatologist though because I feel like they would prescribe me an antibiotic to fight my acne but if you're on antibiotics you're not supposed to be drinking and ya boy still wants to go out on the weekends. I mean there's no guarantee that I'll get prescribed antibiotics lmao but any barrier to my weekend fun is a huge no. Keep it. I don't want it. I'll just be ugly. The boys on grindr weren't responding to me last semester either and I had some pretty good skin last semester. That sounded like a self-deprecating joke but it's not. It's a broader criticism of the gay male community on a whole. But that's a different post, but honestly I'm not sure it's something I want to even discuss unless my next grindr experience goes crazy and is worth discussing.
I'm ready for bed now so I think I'll just cut this one short. Expect more exciting content in the future when I decided to write this not right before bed. Maybe next time I'll be back on that crush craze and have some stupid shit to say about that. Stay tuned as always.