Honestly What A Weekend
This weekend's good things: Sarah came to visit and we had a great night just A+, Saturday night with number Amar, I got a haircut
I've been gone since Wednesday wow. I'm so sorry to my seven followers I'm sure you really missed my word vomit. Well guess what? She's back. I'm gonna obviously use this post as part diary because so much happened this weekend and even today like two hours ago. Like, there's just a lot to unpack so we're all in for a diary entry. If we start with Friday night, that was just fun. I don't think there's too much to say about it. I'm so happy Sarah came to visit for a night and I'm so glad we got lit and it wasn't messy. Like we just had fun together and just :)))))))))))))). I know the night went south for some of my other friends lmao but you know personally we crushed it. Then Saturday night was very cold so I obviously didn't make it out. I think I had been planning all weekend to not even go out Saturday like deep down I knew I wasn't gonna leave the apartments. I say apartments because I was at Amar's place but that's basically my second apartment. So anyway, that night went great. Amar wasn't having a great time until after our gbs lmao but you know we solved a lot of problems. I figured out the negative feedback loop I go through when I drink milk which is the entire reasoning for me not liking it. We listened to Pentatonix's version of Hallelujah and oh my god we were fucking living for it. Like I had the most powerful emotional response to that song last night and it radically changed my life like I don't know how but it really affected me. Like the song coupled with Scott and Mitch's amazing vocals really had me feeling something else Saturday. Amar too, it wasn't just me. Who knew the weekend was gonna be so moving???
Today I played volleyball for three hours and for two of them I was with VB because we're good friends now obviously. It was a lot of fun, I play pretty well around VB and I think that's just naturally because you play better when you're surrounded by people who are good. Like I guess on the one hand you could like be worse just comparatively but I feel like I'm always better around better people and who's a better setter than VB? The answer is no one obviously and so I just think I played really well. He said so too actually, he was like great job playing you're looking good and at the moment I obviously didn't realize the blatant flirting going on but I was like lmao what my hitting? To which he responded no everything you're playing really well and it's just like VB............... ask me out already? Actually did you guys know he has a girlfriend? I found out this devastating information on Thursday night after we played then. Horrible news but all the touching today really makes it seem like they're hitting a rough patch. He's probably looking for some comfort in someone else you know like my arms are open. Also I think he's 6'1" like officially but I feel like I heard someone say today that he's 6'2" but I'm just not sure. I've never asked him about height because I feel like it's an odd question. Like yeah we play a sport inherently dealing with height but I dunno it's just always felt like not a question I should ask. I've created some odd restriction on myself. But that's not important because what's important right now is that his current relationship isn't looking to hot. I experienced all the signs myself tonight and I'm gonna go ahead and look towards building the next step of our relationship. It's just so important to build foundation with relationships like without them I just don't think it's possible to like have something really meaningful and long-lasting. Obviously your wants with different relationships is different and will differ every time but fundamentally one that works really well needs to have some foundation, some sort of trust and bond beyond physical attraction for like a dating relationship. Anyway he was really cute and sweet again today and good at volleyball of course and I was on his team the whole time we played together so it all just worked out really well. Great way to wind down Sunday even though I still have like two hours left of it.
I was gonna write more but I should really work and study cause ya boy has an exam tomorrow and then that god damn paper which got extended to Thursday but still it's not cancelled just moved so now I still have to do it. I didn't want to use this post to complain about it more lmao I'm trying to create some positive space in my life you know. This blog is one of them. So I think I'm gonna tap out for the night. As always, stay tuned for the drama of it all.