Let's All Just Not Expect Too Much From Me On Fridays And Saturdays
This weekend's good things: saw VB on Friday, got to dance a lot this weekend, did not spend a single dollar when I went out
I've just found that it's hard for me to want to write if it's not going to impact how much work I get done. On the weekdays it's fun to write because I am doing that instead of homework but on the weekends I'm not doing homework anyway so there's no motivation to write. It's an extremely parasitic relationship I have. We'll just have to watch how it thrives over time.
This past Halloweekend was pretty successful because both of my costumes showed my waist but I think I should finally invest in a real crop top. Actually, I say real crop top but not even. I just want to thrift one black and one white t-shirt that'd be cute if I cut the bottom three or four inches off and that would be my crop top. Not a real crop top at all but I'm not really looking for anything fitted. I definitely am envisioning a loose shirt that is just revealing and I think it would be a real look. I would probably pair it with a really big cardigan for that contrast and idk maybe I'll host another pregame in that outfit. I'll definitely wear it when I host my next pregame actually. I'm deciding right here and now.
This weekend was supposed to kind of be a hoe weekend cause Omar went to a different school for a coding competition so I had the apartment to myself which is part sad because Omar is not here but you know now if I did happen to bring someone home it'd be less of a situation. So I thought I would try but I didn't really try hard enough at all. There were only two instances of me trying. At the VSA party there was this one boy I remember from tinder who I swiped left on at the time because I didn't really know him and idk dating apps aren't the best way to decide whether you'd actually like a person or not. Also later on I found out that he has a really nice body but also he's white so possibility of being a demon but it's Halloweekend right? So I kind of decided that I wanted to dance on him but never really made any moves to do it so that is instance one of me kind of trying to bring someone home. Drunk me really only wanted to dance though and if I wasn't gonna make moves to dance with him I was gonna at least dance my ass off elsewhere. So then I was going home for the night because I was sufficiently sweaty and tired from all the dancing I did and I decided to hit up this other white boy that I actually have a history with. It's a short history but here: he followed me on instagram before we even got to school last fall which was odd so I didn't follow him back cause I wasn't gonna just follow this stranger solely based on going to the same school, later during first semester I swiped right on him to see if we would match because I recognized his face and we did so that match was sitting in my tinder for a while but nothing came out of that, now it's second semester and I'm at this chem frat for the night and I see him and I decide I want to dance on him so as I walk past him at one point I casually ask if he wants to dance later and he says yes and so we dance and make out for like two hours and he walks me home and we exchange numbers and that's that on that, we talk during the week and it culminates to going on a date on Friday afternoon of the week which was fine, I see him out that night and I was initially going home but he was like don't you wanna go dance inside and obviously I don't say no to dancing but we didn't even dance in the frat!!!!, so then we leave together and he's not being too flirty and we just get on the bus and it drops us off at our respective stops and that's that on that. So a short history obviously. We still say hi to each other if we walk past each other so it's fine and normal but basically nothing came out of that. Nothing has still really happened since then because last night I hit him up on grindr and then I got tired of waiting for the grindr messaged so I just texted him which is really funny and kinda desperate but ya boy was looking for some fun. And then he responded once and never again that night so I just went to bed but that is instance two of me trying to bring someone home. I tried a lot harder the second time though we can all agree my effort level sky rocketed. But still, had I really wanted to bring him home I would've messaged him earlier in the night and not at fuckin 1:30 am. Maybe I'll try again next weekend but earlier in the night so stay tuned for that possible story.
My parents came to visit this weekend which is always great because they brought a shit ton of food and now I will have an easy cooking week. I had to quickly clean up my apartment from the pregame aftermath and hide all the alc but that's just standard procedure. More importantly about this visit, my dad hung up my picture frame that I've been too scared to hang up since fall break. I actually haven't hung up anything in the apartment except for my chalk board out of sheer fear that I won't like I where I hung it. Command strips really advertise how clean and easy they are to take off but fuck I still just wasted a whole half of a strip because I just put my post-modern wall art three inches too far to left. So yeah, thanks for coming off the wall clean, command strip, but how are you gonna solve the actual problem at hand which is me feeling disappointment at my ability to hang pictures up. My beautiful deer canvas and that plant picture have been chilling on the floor since we've gotten to school. Luckily, my dad was here and he doesn't give a shit about intricate aesthetic details so when I said I didn't know where to hang it up he started just hammering a hook into the wall and suddenly I had some cute plant art up in my living room. I wonder what it's like to live life without worrying about how many inches left or right you should've put that poster you bought on Etsy for $40. He must be blissful. Anyway, he'll never read this because if he did I would want to die immediately but thanks for putting my picture up I think you could've maybe put it two inches higher but you know if you don't give a shit I can't really argue with the placement in the end.
Felt good to write today. Lots of things to be done, none of them will get done. At least we can all enjoy our Sunday with this post floating around now. Stay tuned for the drama of it all as always.