There’s Currently A Singular Stool Sitting Outside Of My Apartment
So like I said before, I put out that one stool the other day because I wanted to sit outside and then I didn’t that night but last night! Last night I used that lonely stool after I got home from the gym and it was actually still really early since I decided to go the gym early just a lot of well thought out decisions last night. So I went to the gym early and was dreading how crowded it was gonna be at like 6:30 but turns out it wasn’t crowded because there’s really not that many people here over the summer. So that was the gym who cares that’s boring anyway the stool! I sat on the stool yesterday and also decided to smoke a little and so I just sat on the stool with my pipe and it was really nice and I watched the sun set a little bit and tbh I got like decently high like more than just a little high but not like really high and definitely not baked it’s like on the lower end of the spectrum but closer to the middle than to sober you know? I’m really glad I used the stool out there though I really want to upgrade it to a bench and in the process of writing this I decided to look up some plastic benches and holy shit do you guys know how expensive benches are? What the fuck? They’re in the triple digits like $300-$500 like who is buying a bench for that much? How is that an industry standard? Does everyone buying a bench know what they’re getting themselves into? Is this like not a shock to anyone else in the world? I dunno but the ones that are like $50 which is still too much because I was really thinking of maybe shelling out like $20 max for a cheap bench but the ones for $50 are ugly and I’m not buying ugly patio furniture. Absolutely not I’ll keep that stool out there as an exclusive hang out spot for 1 (one) person if I need to. But see the reason I think all these prices are really absurd is because there’s an extra bench at home on the patio and my dad said I could take it’s really a matter of getting it down here and I’m trying to be patient but I have such a vision for the bench and I really want it so it’s tough to not try and look for one myself but clearly the price is telling me to just be fuckin patient. I have been having a lot of visions for the apartment recently. Just like where to put string lights and the possibility of a second couch maybe and like more stuff hanging on the walls I am really trying to transform the space but I have to wait until my second paycheck but I don’t want to wait and it’s becoming really problematic. Like I feel like I’m just getting antsy not turning the plans into reality. Idk have some patience I guess just chill the fuck out basically is what I have to tell myself. You too can tell me to chill the fuck out in the comments below. Thanks!
Well, in other apartment news since that’s the only space I’m in these days is that I haven’t encountered the raccoons since coming back and I’m not trying to speak it into existence because obviously like that’s not a battle I’m gonna win but I think the raccoons are taking a season off in exchange for: bees. But not the good bees that keep the world alive #savethebees you know not those bees not our dedicated pollinators but those angry meat eating bees who appear at your family barbecues the minute you start enjoying yourself. So I took out the trash the other day and put it in the trash can because that’s where the trash goes and all was well since Sunday but then as I got home the other day I was walking by the trash can and there they were, two angry bees buzzing around the trash can trying to eat my trash. Granted, the angry bees are not strong and built to survive apocalyptic conditions the same way raccoons are but they are not afraid of the sun and will ruin your afternoon in broad daylight. They are also not strong enough to knock over the trash and leave it scattered across the neighborhood like the raccoons either but angry bees are terrifying. I feel like if I breathe wrong as I walk past they’ll come after me? Like they’re judgement and also violent I hate it. It sounds exactly like toxic masculinity which is everything I am actively trying to oppose every day of my life. Angry bees are a metaphor for toxic masculinity. So the meninist bees were at my trash can and I have to sneak by just to get back into my home and it was just really fucking rude. The scariest part was the idea that they might try to follow me into the apartment uninvited like no binch learn some consent. They did not but it was really terrifying having to open my screen door and then unlock the door and then flat stanley myself through the door like who sent these bees and why is it specifically my trash every time something in nature wants a meal???? I am willing to share my food but not like this. I’m also really scared that maybe one day they’ll just try to set up a hive outside my door? Idk do angry bees make hives? If they don’t produce honey do they need a hive? I don’t think so but I still feel like they might decide they also like this new apartment and wouldn’t mind living here but like if you’re not splitting rent with me and Omar you are not living here long term. So, I dunno how this summer will go with the masc4masc bees. If it reaches a tipping point I might start burning my trash with a carbon capture system inside my home so I don’t ever have any uninvited guests every again. If you have any other solutions to the mansplaining bees please comment below as I am open to suggestions to dealing with them if they come back to the trash can which I am fairly sure they will since masculinity is relentless but also fragile but really shockingly relentless.
Anyway, there’s this one thing I want to write about that I worked on recently but it’s actually kind of a surprise I mean I’ve mentioned it before maybe it person like the idea has been spoken and given life in person but it was kind of in passing but I basically spent my whole day of work on Monday working on it lmao like I’m a star intern for just doing my own side projects at work but it was a lot of fun and I have so many aspects of it and the process that I want to talk about and like I’m pretty sure that’s where my buzz of energy came from on Monday like just all this creative energy and it bled into last post you know cause I wrote so fucking much yesterday but like now it’s just waiting for this thing that I did to like come to me and I want to talk about it too but I am placing an arbitrary rule that I can’t talk about it for theatrical purposes and so that when it exists it’s a really cool surprise that’s left field for everyone bar Omar. But yeah I am lost without a creative project anymore kinda so I am searching for cool things to reenergize like beyond just the blog I think I should start reading actually. Yesterday Reem added me on goodreads lmao after like a three month old conversation about adding people on goodreads in which I told her to and then she told me to do it and then I tried to find her but there are a lot of Reem’s on goodreads and she didn’t have her last name either so it was not gonna happen and then she finally did it last night so now I have exactly one friend on goodreads. I tried to use goodreads earlier in my life like during senior year because all the books I have down as read are comic books lmao but I also wanted to read like books and novels and all of that I just never really did but I think if I want some kind of creative project I should just read. I bought Half A Yellow Sun like two weeks ago and have yet to open it? I don’t know why. But then I also was just browsing on goodreads yesterday after getting the notification I had a new friend and I saw Benjamin Alire Saenz had a new book that’s not the sequel to Aristotle and Dante unfortunately but still got good reviews and is a similar story of self discovery and friendship and I was like mood cause I miss my friends so a story about friendships right now sounds like very me but I also don’t want to go out and buy a new book when I just got Half A Yellow Sun especially since I know it’s also gonna be a really good read I just feel myself getting drawn to this new Saenz book. But anyway, the point is I’m gonna try reading and see where that takes me. It’ll probably rectify some of my terrible writing on here lmao. Let’s all just hope for that last part.
Okay well I have to go find some paper now to write down a list of addresses because I feel like it’d be a waste printing the list but I also find it surprising I don’t have easy access to paper? Well I do but I just don’t know my way around this office I only know where my desk, the bathroom, the entrance, and the lunch room and beyond that I’m pretty lost. So I have to go find some paper and the intern next to me said to go to the closet “out there” for a yellow pad of paper like the ones Amar uses but out there is too vague and also I don’t need a whole pad I just need…… one sheet. So that’s my next task until 4 pm so I’m gonna get to it like a good intern so that’s enough writing for me. Until next time, stay tuned for the drama of it all.