I Missed December 1st, 2nd, And 3rd How Tragic
Lmao this is stuff from yesterday that I never ended up posting because I decided to be completely unproductive and couldn't even do this.
Finals season looms upon us but luckily I don't take my education seriously so I won't be stressing that much. Just kidding I do take it seriously kind of and I'm probably gonna break out a shit ton during the next two weeks but I'll have all of winter break to heal so it's fine. Anyway, besides final season being here and me not doing my essay at all, I've recently become the biggest hit on grindr. I'm what's fresh and hot now hunty. And it's not even just old men who are weirdly into guys half their age it's like other students I'm like girl did someone put in good word for me or did I just finally choose the right picture to pick up boys. So I'm currently juggling three conversations with these other students who are actually pretty good looking. I don't know how I'm doing it but I am barely and my phone battery is really taking the hit cause of it. I have to check grindr often because they literally don't give you notifications when you get a message so at some point you're trapped in this negative feedback loop where you want to have a normal conversation but you also don't want to be on grindr for your entire life you go in and out of the app every five minutes and you drain your battery and it's horrible. Like all this work for what? Nudes? Some light conversation? For boys obviously. I think I know out of three which one I'm like obviously most attracted to because I've found them attractive since last year when I first learned of their general existence. Definitely did not think this person liked boys but lo and behold they're on grindr AND they're messaging me like what a fucking concept. Not a bad conversation either like it's engaging and not boring and just we'll see what happens. I really do think it's bad to go into relationships, and I'm using the word relationship as a general term, expecting something romantic out of it just because how can you really tell someone would be a good match for you romantically? I don't think it's realistic so I'm not trying to sabotage anything like secretly but I am just saying that like, we should just j chill and keep our foot on the brakes instead of the acceleration. Just in general. Didn't realize this topic was gonna get so real tonight but just some oolong for you ladies tonight. And honestly? Take a big fuckin sip babes.
Lmao the other night I was talking to Omar and Eileen about old video games and life when I used to play more video games and obviously I can't talk about this without acknowledging my former past as a competitive pokemon battler. Not like, a professional one or anything but you know a casual one. In 6th grade I was big into competitive battling like I spent all my time on the internet on pokemon forums and my internet friends were just other people who played pokemon competitively but they were all older. Generally these people were like in high school at least and I was only in 6th grade and so I would lie about my age. I think I said I was 14 when I was actually 12 lmao. I also at some point shared pictures of myself in this one thread where everyone was sharing their pictures. I definitely didn't look 14. So fucking weird. Some of them I'm still friends with on facebook so it's interesting. It's definitely something. Anyway, what also came out of this hobby was a youtube channel where I would record my battles against other people. Obviously at age 12 I wasn't good at battling like I just didn't have it in me to be good at something that takes so much thinking. Anyway, I had like 22 subscribers on this youtube channel of mine, all of them were the people I talked to on forums lmao. So I was watching some of these old videos of mine the other night with them and like, how did people watch my shit? An intro for my videos was like a minute of this one pokemon battling scene and the actual battle was only like a minute and a half of content. Why would I ever think that having a video that was only like a little over two minutes be fitting for an intro that's a minute long? Actually, when does a video ever warrant having a fucking one minute intro? So many bad decisions with video making but apparently my friends were such great friends that they still liked, commented, and subscribed. But now I'm probably gonna slowly unadd them on Facebook pretty freely if I decide I don't like the content they post so, thanks for subscribing but we're not really............................. friends.
I'm so fucked for tonight though lmao like this paper hasn't even manifested itself on one single page yet so I'm looking forward to not sleeping tonight. Wish me luck, don't be like me, I'm probably not even gonna be dedicating my day to this paper so definitely don't be like me. But as always, stay tuned for the drama of it all.