There’s This One Discount Shoe Website Called 6PM Which I Always Google As 5pm Shoes Lmao
I’m never gonna remember the actual name but google’s never failed me in correcting my time mistake. Yet another instance of time being fake. I don’t even know where I am on the scoreboard with that but I know I’m in the lead. Anyway, today marks my first full week of work and I’m leaving early today like any other full-fledged government employee. Apparently my supervisor won’t be here today either, I literally just heard someone say usually she works half days on Fridays but today she’s not planning on being here. I love it. Anyway, the office is really empty. But anyway besides the office right now, earlier this week I helped at a public comment meeting for the city’s comprehensive plan update which was very interesting. Parks and rec exaggerates only a certain amount with regard to how citizens act in these things lmao. Like, my group wasn’t too bad but their voices had such a tone to it all their comments were like it just doesn’t make sense to have done x when y etc etc etc like they were really coming out here Wednesday night guns blazing. This other intern said her group had some like tough people lmao and it’s just a lot of passive aggressiveness. So the meeting ended, and this one lady from my group came up to me after and was like oh so you’re an intern, from where? And I was like oh I’m interning with the neighborhood development services and specifically the bike/ped safety stuff. And then it gets wild cause she was like yes but from where? And I was like????? What more do you want from me???? So I was like……. the city of Charlottesville……… city government……….. nds………… bike/ped safety……… and she was like yes but from school? From where? And by then I was like I don’t understand and she was finally like do you go to school? And I was like oh yeah I go to uva and she was like okay very nice, took you a while but we got there. And then she left and I was like what in the fuck do you mean it took me a while?????? Who asks someone what school they go to by asking from where?????? My school didn’t send me to do anything girl I hate that institution I’m not from uva I’m an autonomous person and she also can’t expect people to understand the question from where????? Where what???? Her white ass could have very well been asking me what ethnicity I am too, she’s like I was too confused to unpack that question on a deeper level at the time. From where?????? And then that last comment, took you a while, like yes Beth, it did take me a while to understand what you actually wanted from me and it will take you another lifetime to understand why your vague question is confusing but I’m not over here making little comments saying like, that’s a dumb way to ask it, in your face. I’m complaining about it on my blog and reflecting while I’m at it, something you should consider too Suzanne. The caucacity is sometimes unbelievable but they’ll always surprise you. So that was my first open forum-esque meeting. I imagine they only get more and more like parks and rec over time you just have to really stick it out so I’ll be in the public sector for the rest of my life until I feel fulfilled.
So we are officially in cancer season now and I know it’s in full force because yesterday I sent Amar a ten paragraph email about emotions and I was like yeah it’s cancer season alright lmao. I was also listening to Lorde go track by track and explain the process and feelings of Melodrama so maybe I was ready for some of my own melodrama. What an icon, that gal. Anyway, I have a lot of cancer season jokes I wanna tweet but I think I’m trying to keep it down to one, just in these first few days. I mean, sometimes I think if I was still in 10th grade but with all the knowledge and humor I have right now I’d probably tweet about astrology on the daily, multiple times a day, nonstop. I’d be in math class trying to learn antiderivatives for the first time tweeting about how Mercury being in retrograde yet again was really making me lose focus!!!! I think if I could completely rebrand on twitter I’d try to be poetastrologers. Maybe in the future when I am over my twitter, I’ll delete and just start linking @poetastrologers if someone ever asks me for my twitter. I’d be like, no I don’t have one but if I did it’d look exactly like poetastrologers so that’ll be pretty much the same experience for you. I kind of want to write my cancer season tweet here but I think I’m gonna try and save it as a twitter exclusive. I guess I feel kind of cheap recycling my jokes between my different personalities online. Like, I’d say over this past year I tweet less because I started writing on this blog. My one liners are all in here now, there’s no reason to tweet about anything when I’ve already detailed it in long form on my blog. When I ran the comic book club in high school with Umar lmao I made a twitter account and then after we graduated and left the club to die because no one would be able to maintain it the way we did or have the same Good comic book opinions, I kept the twitter and used it as like a personal twitter for a little lmao that one is so funny I tweeted on it during first year so often like that was what this blog is for me now. But anyway, even on that one I revisited it one day to just check on one friend who I follow on that twitter but not my “””main””” twitter I guess and I was like I’m so sorry I haven’t been here but I’ve been writing I’m essayist now here’s my blog I just don’t have anything funny to say after I write 1000000 words on this thing so be sure to check that out if you’re curious about what the fuck I’m getting myself into these days. I just feel like, if my audience has overlap then I should be churning out original content for each facet of myself online. I am trying to carve myself out as authentically as possible for my fans. I can’t share my insta posts on facebook because then people are just seeing the same thing twice. You know in that same manner now, I can’t write my zesty little cancer season joke here if I’m planning to put it on twitter. I don’t know it’s like artist integrity or something idk maybe I just have morals and the rest of the world doesn’t I dunno lmk your thoughts I guess maybe I’m just morally superior it’s not a big deal but maybe I am idk lmk.
Okay so anyway I just wanna talk about Melodrama for a little more because it’s so good and I am living for the album especially after I listened to her give a track by track commentary yesterday. I actually am a big fan of commentary by producers or artists like my parks and rec dvds have some bonus commentary features and I just love listening to them talk about the show and their work and like the background production details I love it so much. Anyway, lorde is doing great as we all know based on Melodrama and I remember one comment she made about the difference of this album is how it’s much less minimalist than Pure Heroine and like there’s so much interesting production to it and just when it gets broken down and she explains how they pieced together and produced these songs it was so interesting. So anyway, I was really excited to listen to her talk about supercut because that is in fact the best song on the album I fucking love supercut I love it I love it I love it so much and it’s interesting because she feels as though supercut and green light are sibling songs on the album like they’re the most similar to one another and I can kind of see that but I still think green light is the weakest I mean after listening to her commentary on it I have more respect for it but I don’t think my opinion is necessarily changed about it. So I just think it’s interesting that I find supercut the best while green light the weakest, I guess two sides of the same coin one doing it really well like one giving me it all and the other just flopping. But no, the best thing from the commentary is that she said supercut is really sisters with ribs from pure heroine and when you think about it, like they are. I listened to them back to back when I got home and like, granted I also smoked a little before I went to watch the sunset on a mountain but I was listening to it and she was so right and I also fucking love ribs I just love pure heroine as an album like it was perfect for me as a 16 year old and in a way I feel like melodrama is so right for me as a 20 year old like ya boy isn’t going through heartbreak but the amount of reflection that went into melodrama is so me now I love reflecting on things for three months. So basically, supercut is sisters with ribs and I love them both and melodrama is so good and here’s the link for the track by track commentary so everyone can understand the artistry behind her hit sophomore album buy melodrama on itunes!!!!!!!!!
Well anyway, I only have two more hours of work left today which is great. I really don’t think I’ve done anything this morning except look dumb but I’m just biding my time until I can sprint out of the office lmao. I think I’m good there with my melodrama review: it’s really fuckin good. Maybe at some point over the summer I’ll start thinking of segments I can do again which might be fun. Music reviews are fun but I’m not that interesting when I review them I feel like idk I’ll let it simmer. But as always, stay tuned for the drama of it all.
Holy shit I know I said I was done writing for today but then I went to lunch and I remembered my lighter story. Actually the way I remembered it was kind of funny I was thinking about like people using the word gay and idk this only came up cause I thought of Amar's current roommates and how often they throw it around lmao like wow I haven't been around straight people like that in so long that's crazy but anyway that's not the point the point is that it led to me thinking about how I can use gay however I want because I'm a big ol queer or whatever the fuck anyway I thought about the gayest thing I've done recently and I remembered that I bought a four pack of lighters from target and decorated one with washi tape and it's so cute now lmao. That's the gayest thing I've done recently though but anyway, what happened was that basically my first ever lighter, all the way from first year, finally died and I had to accept it and it was time to start a new era. I remember one time Sarah got this one bedazzled lighter from the gas station or something and snapchatted me and it was so cute and I realized that I too wanted a cute ass lighter like I'm not about these plain colors anymore I want theatrics because like I said I'm really gay. If I had my ideal situation, I would've been able to find a Star Wars lighter, specifically a Poe Dameron one cause he's hot and like that's an obvious choice like hot and fire I can't be the only one who has wanted a Poe Dameron lighter. Anyway, target continues to fail me and all my needs but I'm still pretty loyal to it I guess I'm not sure why but I found no such Poe lighter there and instead only found four packs of lighters in either plain colors or with ugly ass patterns on them which was tough. I was looking for a cute lighter and I couldn't find one? But I kept digging between the cash register aisles lmao and found a pack that had three lighters with that corny typography stuff that usually says like Not All Those Who Wander Are Lost with like ten different fonts and like some vectors and then they slap it on everything and it's a hit. If I can recall from memory correctly mine say: It's all in your hands, Little black lighter, and Enjoy the small things so basically I kind of hate them and I think they could say live, laugh, love on them separately which wouldn't make them any better but I especially hate the pattern on the fourth lighter but then I thought, you can use them ironically obviously. That's the solution to most problems. So I decided on that pack and made my purchase along with a picture frame and some washi tape, which is important to this story because I got home and decided I was gonna put washi tape on that fourth lighter with the pattern just to add some spice to it. I put it on snapchat for an exclusive group of fans but what I showed was not the finished project because at that time I had only put three strips of washi tape on it which didn't cover the whole lighter but then later that night before I decided to have a good night bowl I put the last two strips on covering the whole thing and now I have a customized lighter that I love. It's gonna be my lighter of choice for a while probably lmao it's so cute I love the washi tape on it like legitimately enjoy it. So that's the lighter I've been using this past week and also one night I was thinking about how I was such a baby first year I'm just thinking about all those times when I first started smoking and like couldn't light the bowl myself wow baby me anyway I'm a mother now with a full time job and I love my life and also my new washi tape lighter. That's all. Only 30 minutes of work left lmao.