I wonder. What if when you want it, that's the exact time you can't, for reasons, have it?
It's best to do it, follow that emotion, chase that ephemeral feeling you get from being around her. Even if you're wrong, and it ends disastrously, you'll get to see it.
I'm one of those people who make plans and envision a complex and complete vision of myself a set number of years into the future. Often. Revisited. So I can refine it.
I want her to be part of that future even though it will mean choosing what she wants. Sprung.
Imagine being a defenseless infant.