current events 29 sept. 2014
it's been so long since i've known what it's like to have a friend.. "IN REAL LIFE." it's a dream, but i don't know what i'm making of myself in this life. i can't believe that i currently feel so much less empty than i had before, yet so much more incapable. my grades are dropping so low, and i may just drop one of my classes. i wouldn't at all mind this if my life was as independent as i wished. instead, i've been relying on so many; i've been working for so many; i feel like i'm letting them down by being unable to get through this time. i guess the worst part is that i actually AM able to get through this, but i'm deciding not to. i am over forcing my body and mind to do things that i don't even care for. i have always craved for a flexible life, and when it comes to that, i become really stubborn.