So I went back on OKC last night, not that I really want to, but I paid for it, so there. Loaded up a fresh batch of photos from the trip, some witty captions, and...
Anyway, I went through my sent emails, and I realized that I had emailed one woman twice. I sent her an email in February, and then another in March. It was that which prompted her to say that she was not interested.
I'd totally forgot that I had emailed her before. Normally, there's a pop-up box that appears to show you your prior conversation, but for whatever reason, it didn't happen or I didn't see it.
Now I feel like a heel for bothering her, after she did the no-response.
In the past few days, my feed has been filled with stuff about the yobos at the TFC game, which was, you know, terrible. On the car ride back from Buffalo, Sis was going on and on about workplace harassment, which is true, but in my mind sorta beside the point -- workplace or not-workplace, that behaviour shouldn't be happening anywhere, anytime.
So against that backdrop, the larger conversation about how misogynistic men can be, I feel even worse about making that second advance to someone who wasn't interested. I know that doesn't make any rational sense whatsoever -- that it was a pretty tame thing in an environment which is built for making advances -- but even so, it's doing a mainline on Ye Olde Catholicke Guilte. I feel awful. Which makes no sense.
I really wish my account had expired, so I wouldn't have to deal with any of this. I'm not made for it at all.