Walking home from the shitty supermarket last night, I saw nearish-neighbour Dutch Girl get out of her car and head into her house. With her was some guy, who checked the mailbox and entered in with her. So, there's definitely a guy in the picture then, which I suspected (because why wouldn't there be?), but never could get any confirmation on.
It was actually a fair bit of relief, finally knowing the real situation (not that it makes a difference in the end).
"Of course there's a guy in the picture! It's not that she found me unattractive, it's simply that she was unavailable!"
Last night I was messaged by someone on OKC with whom I had been chatting earlier, until Ukulele Girl popped up. I wasn't really feeling it with that first girl, and so did the fadeout (which, yeah, I know, but seems to be pretty standard edating behaviour, given how many times I've been faded out on).
So I got this message from this woman after a few days of silence. She wanted to know what it was that she said that turned me off. I think she was drunk, given how she kept misspelling "Hamilton", and another half-message she sent before finishing.
I simply responded that I was chatting with her, but that I was also chatting with someone else, and that seemed to be going faster and farther than our chat did, and so I decided to go after that possibility instead, and that it wasn't anything personal about her.
She replied that she found my answer "refreshing".
I probably could have backtracked with a lot of grovelling at that point, but I didn't. If I wasn't feeling it in the first place... And frankly, the experience with Ukulele Girl has soured me for a few days. I've no appetite for edating at all right now -- not just that disappointment, but just the sum bullshit surrounding online dating as a whole. Which, given my having faded out on someone, I'm probably contributing to.
I'm not liking this process At All.