Yeah, I think I blew it. Not sure how, maybe coming on too fast, maybe not being deferential enough, who knows? Something to obsess about for the next while.
I can't help feeling that I'm constantly being punished for something, for my past behaviour with women. Maybe that's bunk, but it's the only theory that makes sense. How else would an unlucky streak go on this long? But if I'm being punished, what did I do that was so bad?
Dark night of the soul ahead. Yippee.