Promising myself to erase the the memories we shared
It will be easier to erase than to convince myself you actually cared
What was it about you that made me feel consumed?
Meanwhile I was just something to keep you amused.
I am grieving a loss of something that was never mine,
That is what I tell myself yet I secretly wait for your reply.
Every trace of you deleted from my phone which is a start,
Wishing it was easy as a click of a button to erase the damage to my heart.
You might not even be aware of how much you meant to me,
giving my hope of plans that will happen "eventually".
I need to be honest with myself and let you go,
still, I will be hoping for a message from you tomorrow.
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