it's not the fleeting type of sadness. it's the kind of sadness that sits on your heart and you don't really realize that she's there until you see her foil in someone else. you wonder why you are not happy as well and then sadness digs her heels in and reminds you why she is there: to keep you around. sadness keeps me alive and keeps me wanting to die. it festers and burns and rears its beautiful head until you cannot move, you cannot breathe, all you can do is cry. and it breaks your heart to see it happen, but you cannot escape her because she has grown on you and you have learned to love her.