Ello

Claudia Kaak, Untitled (Series 10, Nr. 2), Oil on canvas, 60 x 80 cm, 2016.

You never talked to me in the night
or sang a special song.
You never kissed my boo-boos
or told me I belong.

You never set down on my bed
to help me get to sleep
or came to try my tears when you see me weap.

You never held me close
so I can feel your heartbeat next to mine
or ran your hand across my face
memorizing my desire.

You never took the time to read at bed
a story, so I could dream
of a far of place and land
with a good would as it seemed.

(...)

You never shielded me from ugly
in fact: you are the one
that I struggle with the most and fear I will become.

That little girl that you gave life
who never left your side,
you took her and you ruined her
and did nothing while she died.

(...)

(Unknown author)