So, in a week and a half I'm going to Chicago to see "David Bowie Is" at the MCA. I mean, that's cool in and of itself, but...what most of you don't know is that I have panic disorder with agoraphobia. This is my therapy "graduation" trip - the cognitive behavioral equivalent of a final exam.
This is the big test: Can I really do it? Can I make it a thousand miles from home when a year ago I couldn't get out of my immediate neighborhood without panicking? I haven't been on a plane in five years. I haven't spent more than two nights away from home in three. I've never been to Chicago, despite being from the midwest originally. I mean, wow.
I'm so nervous. And I'm really scared. But I need this, I really do. I'm committed to it.
I guess what I'm trying to say is that I may be completely batshit for the next little while, and since most of you are new to me, I wanted to warn you.
Affectionate, crazypants for everyone. Thanks for listening.