"...We are going to lose. Badly. And way more often than we win. We are going to be completely and utterly emotionally devastated and undone. And ask ourselves if this is how we've chosen to learn the most important things we will ever have to learn here. Everyone we know is going to die. It is going to be very hard, just a bit more overwhelming than we need it to be . We will have to just deal with it eventually. We will feel humiliated and betrayed in every way possible at one time or another but usually at the worst time that will do the most damage. If we survive we will grow old, wrinkled, and ugly and experience the gross indignities of our body breaking down and failing us. We will see people who are undeserving succeed and never face failure or retribution as the fairytales say they should. And we will find ourselves failing over and over again at just about everything we think of to do. We will be decimated and destroyed and live on.
We will see people for who they are, not for who they wish to be. We will deceive ourselves at every turn, to the point where we won't know what is reallly real anymore. We will feel betrayed by life itself and by ourselves. And we will be disappointed by life, feel let down by those we trust; and abandoned to our fate at the very moment we feel we need the most gentle care. We will experience the most cruel neglect. We will be despised, hated, and plotted against. Targeted for our beliefs. We may even feel hunted down for our precious nature and sensitivity. Victimized at the moment of our greatest vulnerability. We will find ourselves really and truly alone. Feeling completely lost and abandoned. Facing struggles that no one else knows or cares about. Eventually we will face the greatest struggle of our life and we will bleed and be wounded and fall and faulted and fail miserable, if it is done right. And if it is done right we will have fought to a draw. We will triumph merely by surviving, enduring, overcoming.
And if we are really lucky and happen to be paying close attention we might have a moment in the midst of our greatest trials when we remember that we chose this. We chose all of this. That to feel and experience it all is why we chose to come to life. And that will be all we get. No big parade. No pat on the back. No 'attaboy' no 'thank you'. if we're really lucky, just a fleeting moment of knowing crystalline absolute truth. And maybe this bare glimpse will be enough to help us through the deepest moments of our despair. We will not stop the onslaught, nor even slow it for a moments respite. But we will ever have the choice to exercise our conscious awareness or not. To mark each moment or not. To remember who we all really are, beyond all of this life, or not. Just infinite, merely immortal children of the light...?" - what they will not tell us at birth...?
