The writing resolution is unsuccessful in that there is no accountability--my other resolution, concerning working out (I love to work out, I love to exercise, lift weights, the whole shebang, I suppose that helps) is going swimmingly because I need to check in. I have to post my workout, the length, etc, and other people see it. In one sense I shouldn't care what other people think, but that isn't the issue, the issue is, we are all in it together. In the writing I am alone and unsupported, adrift. Writing requires reading, you know, it isn't done 'til someone has read it. It isn't even that I don't want to write, but that I am writing into the void. That was okay at 20, everything was the void at 20, but at 40 (well, considerably more than 40) I feel like I need some roots in the ground, some sense of belonging, some sense of community. Isolation isn's as romantic as it once was and doesn't seem to serve any constructive purpose. Ugh, rationalization. Write. Just fucking write, okay?