got back from the gym about an hour ago. I feel great, better it seems than I've felt in a long time. Just a good mood. It helps that the night is calm and wonderful. Not much traffic, there is a slight breeze but otherwise not much air movement, pretty still and peaceful and overcast. And it's warm cool. The nights have been cold but this night is just perfect, like California weather. Perfect temperature, humidity, calmness and no mosquitoes out yet! I was in a good mood for awhile after leaving the gym. I'm settling in back in some spaces that need some tidying and some air flow, and I've got tasks to confront. The only comfort is in just getting them done. It feels good to workout every day.
Many thoughts. It does make sense that, say, bodybuilders have a cutting phase, because the sheer pragmatism is that muscle training and weight loss are two specialty activities requiring focus and thus cycles. I need to push the diet a little more. I can't sustain certain needed works for too long, but attempts every now and then are feasible. To really cut all fat, processed oils, except for maybe nuts, seeds, avocado, tightly in a recipe, to the point where it's not comfortable eating, it's challenging and a struggle in the short and medium-term. I can't keep that up too long and my body needs to pace itself, when I am exercising. Cannot really do that when exercising. Can do it a little bit. Days off from exercise just so I can take on some difficult diet is, thankless and gloomy. The exercise helps keep me in a good mood.
I shouldn't have problem finding a job. My plan is less hours, more time outdoors, and keeping up with basics. Exercise is always gonna make me feel good and level and usually not bitter for any reason. But diet efforts and the speculative stuff is hard. The speculative stuff is the thankless work for the dreams. Anybody can be a super model. I need to enjoy just taking care of myself and appearance rather than all these thankless field and career and art works, that few men have pioneered and nobody can give an easy guide for and it's just, gloomy. All jobs are sh-t unless you happen to be someone who fits comfortably in prefab categories. But overall, job structure is nice, but most lead nowhere and suck out a man's soul and impinge into the schedule. With the job, dog and daily living, there isn't much time nor energy left to have a positive outlook on any projects or works. So gotta reduce hours. The dog takes up so much time, she's an extension of myself by now so I don't feel healthy unless I take care of my fifth furry limb, the doggie doggie. I took her to to the backyard in the night. No mosquitoes. On a medium sized tree in the yard, which has a lot of bark grooves, some decent sized black ants were on a highway doing night work, moving kinda slow but very full of life. They seem busy. Doggie foraged on some fresh greens. I've things to do. The clothes I bought today worked out nice. The pants ran a little small, I might have to exchange them.