My entire life I have felt ashamed of my body. From swimming in pools and lakes with a shirt on, to being made fun of in the locker room of middle school I have always tried to hide it as much as I possibly could.
I am finally coming to terms with the fact that this shame and embarrassment that I feel is under my control, and I am finally starting to act on that. Today I started doing yoga again, and I know that I will continue this time.
I have only expressed these thoughts to a handful of people. I try to put on my best face and be a joy when I'm around other people, but the physical and emotional pain is always underneath. I hope that this is going to help me ease both pains.
This is the first picture I have even taken with my shirt off. This is me taking ownership of my body and my fate. I'm looking forward to seeing the change.