When I say it's not just a word, it really is not just a word. To me at least, it doesn't mean anything to you and it shouldn't because you don't identify and never will with that word so it's just a word for you but it's not because there is so much still behind it. It's not the same as calling a friend retarded or gay for doing something in terms of race, If a gay person was like don't use gay then it's valid and you shouldn't but the n word really?? it's not like calling you a sterotypical name or profiling you, it's calling me dirty, calling me less than, calling me a monkey, calling me ugly because I'm dark, saying I'm worth less because of my skin, validating all that I have been taught and many black peoples have been taught and things that have been brainwashed and engrained in us. Thinking they are the worst and worth nothing and that shit is real I'm not making it up. When that word is used like calling someone a homie by a non black it's like dude what the fuck how could you. And it's not coming from a slavery point I know but it still kinda is...but this is coming from someone who knows the race struggle as an African immigrant who had no idea about that word and about slavery and still understands and does not feel comfortable with it, like really, why is it necessary? Why is there a need for it to just be a word? And when a black person uses it or more so justly an African American uses it it's okay because it's actually progression for our people to own something that is so belittling and intense in terms of culture, Africans don't go out saying my nigg! They don't and if they do it's because of their African American friends or the culture they grow up around. It's a word that means slow and steady progression that a lot of us recognize and a lot are still uncomfotable with even in the black community but when a non black does it it's like going ten steps back and you don't even know you're doing it. Literally hearing that word justifies me buying bleaching products because I'll think I'll be more beautiful if I'm lighter, it justifies me only wanting to date and procreate with WHITE men because I think that will make me better in society, that justifies me thinking I'm less than for being a n word.
A couple of weeks ago I had past life regression to answer some questions about my currently life, when I went under hypnosis and found my past life was as an African American male in his early 20's in the 1950's and 60's. Do you know how pissed I was when I found out? All I wanted was to be anything but a black male and it's 2016, like that word is not just a word in reality like you saying "nigga stop" translates to "you're just another nigga so stop because you're only that and worth shit " like it's not just a word do you feel me? And I'm not coming from a point of you're wrong you're racist or whatever at all, Because I know the first thing people want to shout is "I'm not racist" whenever there is race talk even in the slightest so calm your ass because I'm not coming at you at all. I'm just trying to give a voice to shit like this because I've just always been quiet and I see stuff like this all the time but I never check it or say anything and I'm just like ugh but it's coming from a place of wanting to educate and get a conversation going on both sides because I know it's not from a place of malice or trying to put people down but just how people feel it is and how people identify with that word. These words are coming from someone who is told that they are literally at the bottom of the totem pole in the world and in society like and to hear that like it's not fun but then to have young kids and fools are here calling me the n word like its nothing or saying it at all Is like a slap in the face. Next time you hear it please check them and if you think you're cool and hip and say it all the time please check yourself and your skin color in the mirror and the oppression and self hate and years of struggle actual niggas have to face.