So since the letter things have changed I think for the better. My love got in contact with me and I thought it was good. Though I almost had no idea what to expect and then he told me that he wanted to spend some time with me. So I decided to just do it, love kind of does crazy things to me but I was calm and collected and ready to face what was ahead. It's awesome to reconcile things within yourself even before someone else figures it out for themselves. We decided to get away for an overnight and it was what we both needed, to be in each others spheres for a little while. I hadn't seen him in a week and a half or so. He needed to deal with his own stuff and so we all do at really hard times in our lives. I was glad to be with him finally, realizing that what we had was good and that we wanted it to continue. So we had an amazing almost two days together. We hadn't ever done that, we briefly talked but not as in depth as I liked. I think he wanted to just relax and that was also what I wanted. We smiled a lot, it felt like we had never been apart and it felt good. I always enjoy my time with him, when it's over I always feel like I want more. I guess I always get stuck in that kind of thinking. What I really should be focusing on is enjoying the minutes and hours I do have. I appreciate all that. We spent some more time during the holidays and even gave each other nice gifts. We'll thought out in fact, I thought I did pretty good. I'm now looking at a new year and wandering if things will go deeper and get even better with us or will there be more challenges we face. I think now that my head is on straight, I've got a better sense of not only what he needs but of my own. So in love I will endeavor to not ever forget who I am and to put myself first. I simply cannot take care of anyone else if I cannot take care of myself. I look forward to more of an abundance of love, new adventures, more self-discovery, education and learning and continued growth.