I've not been dating too much lately, the person I was seeing ended things with me over the summer. Though we are still friends and talk, I feel less and less of a need to chat with him everyday. I want to find a person that wants me(not just a part but all of me) also not just to date me then drop me when things get difficult in their life or complicated in general.
It's been a harsh reality being in the Bay Area that I might not find the person for me here. Doesn't matter how many dates I go on or how many men live here. There is too much choice, too much emphasis on money, looks and everything in between.
What I really want is a person of substance, who is transparent, who only wants the best for me, who is affectionate and loving, who deeply cares about me the way I do them.
Who want to explore everything and do just about anything with me and live life the way it should be lived. I envy those who have this already and I get depressed realizing that I might not get what I desire.