I saw the world when I was five.
I can still see it now and all I can say is that
There can be nothing sadder than to watch someone leave you.
Their back telling you to stay put and accept my leaving.
And further to my looking at the world, with its insensitivity around,
I was thinking what if I never met you?
What if I never saw those talking eyes?
What if I never tasted those insatiable lips?
You are my priceless joy
And my relentless pain.
How the same person can be both, at the same time
Is the most excruciating thing the world has made me see.
I am scared to close my eyes because I know you'll be there.
Your face, your moves, flashes of everything that makes you.
How I try to remember all the details
Because I know I will need these flashes of you soon.
How it pains me to feel everything through this heart
My heart that just can't love you.
How it pains me to see the world through these eyes
My eyes that will soon look at your back when I watch you leave.