#MS #MultipleSclerosis #Disabled #MobilityThoughts
So, I'm 25 this month - and I'm sitting up researching wheelchairs.
I just had my 3rd MRI- to confirm whether or not my currently diagnosed CIS (Clinically Isolated Syndrome) has converted into MS (Multiple Sclerosis). Right now my legs are numb, kinda painful in an odd far away sort of way and my hands are at a lower level of lacking sensation. I'm sitting on the couch, with my crutches propped up next to me and putting off going to get food because even with crutches, it would hurt, it would make me dizzy, and I can't be bothered with what feels like inflicting pain on myself so to go and get food.
When I write that down it seems insane.
The consideration of a wheelchair is something that has been on my mind for a long time, but I'm having a lot of trouble dealing with the 'but, I can walk, I just fall over a lot and it really fucking hurts and I get dizzy af' - but, I can walk.
I know that is nonsense. I know loads of folk who use wheelchairs who can walk better than I can - they just have had wheelchairs, and the need for wheelchairs, longer than I have. I've only really been back on crutches for about two years and it feels like, yeah getting a wheelchair would really, really improve my quality of life. Not even an electric one, just a manual wheelchair- and as long as it was sufficiently light (because I'm tiny) then I could do stuff I can't do now!
According to everything I read, that is enough justification.
Here's what I'm gonna do; I'm gonna wait to get my diagnosis finalised, and then I'm gonna look into hiring one for a bit. If it does actually improve my life, then I will liaise with the NHS wheelchair service (I love the NHS) and talk to the grants and trusts to see about getting a WCMX chair.
It's just a bit of a mindfuck to even consider.