It's unfair going from seeing
Someone everyday to seeing them once a week to once a month,
Especially when you're not ready,
Especially when you want to see them.
I don't know if it's separation anxiety or just plain "I want to see you".
But I do..
I want to see you,
But that's not fair and I know that.
We both have lives to live.
I don't like being a child,
Wanting what I want unreasonably,
Crying because I can't have it.
I don't like the child within,
Being angry over silly things,
Crying for hopeless things.
I don't like being childish.
I'm sorry for wanting to see you.
I don't want to want to see you,
But you make my heart lighter,
Something I'll never tell you out loud
Because I don't like telling people that my heart aches when I'm not with them.