I outgrew you
before you were ready
to be left behind.
I have a tendency
of doing that, I think,
of moving on too soon
before someone can do the same to me.
It's hypocritical and selfish
pushing people away and never
allowing myself to feel too much
before it's too late.
I'm trying to be better,
to stay when I am afraid
and think I feel the impending
sting of a slap on my cheek.
I outgrew you and I'm sorry
because I once thought we could last,
but then I saw that imagined hand
rising like a tsunami wave
and I ran for higher ground.
I should have trusted
that the wave would be gentle
and with it we could float together
and maybe even keep growing together
like the plants on my bookshelf,
resilient and standing straighter every day.
But instead we grew apart.
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To the person this is written about: I'll never have the courage to say all of this to you, but I'm sorry for everything.
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