I can't help but feel like I've made the biggest mistake of my life. Never have I felt so disconnected and alone like this. I did it to better myself, but now I regret it. I'd rather be unhappy with you than happy without you. You agreed so quickly to end our relationship that it shocked me and pulled my heart out of my body. I did it because I felt used and worthless, but now I feel nothing. Feeling terrible is better than the empty feeling I have now. I don't know what I'm supposed to do. I was so dependent on you to be there for me. I'm sorry that you couldn't feel the same way. You said we are different people now, but even if I have changed that doesn't mean my love for you has. I'm sorry I instigated the break up, but I just needed a response from you. I needed something to go off of how you were feeling. The feeling may have ended up mutual, but I'm still a mess without you. I can't imagine myself with someone else, and I especially don't want to imagine you with someone else. I assume this is what you wanted though and I shouldn't be upset, but I am. I cried and then shut down all day yesterday. It would have been three years in April, but now I'm counting the days where you're no longer a part of my life. Today is day one and we both said still haven't changed our relationship statuses on social media. We both still have our bios and pictures together up. I'm just not ready to move on, are you? Are you waiting on me to change mine first or are you not ready to end it yet either? I wonder what you think about all of this. Would you even be willing to talk anymore? I miss you, and more importantly I am so sorry for making you fall out of love and feel unhappy.