I tire of the view that pragmatism > audacity.
I'm done with the idea that Bernie Sanders isn't aligned with my best interests as a woc and that somehow Hillary Clinton is.
I don't wholeheartedly love either candidate. Both of their teams say things that are problematic for me as a Brown Woman, and also for me as a person.
But can we please stop pretending they don't both say problematic shit sometimes?
There's this prevailing view that Bernie supporters are militant in their push to get poc to support him. And I see it.
I prefer Bernie, but it's not because someone told me I should. It's because, after deep personal reflection, I think he's best for me.
I wish Bernie would step up in many ways. I also want to hear less rhetoric and more details.
But I know that at least he's willing to have the conversation. I know where he stands. And most of the time, he and I are standing together.
Just as I'm listening to my intuition with Bernie, I'm thinking about and listening to my intuition with Hillary.
I see an enormously successful woman politician. That counts for something. Everybody hatin, and she still here. That counts for a lot.
I also hear a person who tells me to be realistic in my expectations. But what does that mean exactly?
I watched "Selma" today. Remember when LBJ said to "wait," "not right now," "my hands are tied"? I'm not voting for "wait."
I'm voting for the person who's willing to have the conversations that I want to have, now.
Bernie isn't open to having all the conversations that I want to have, but he is talking about a lot of them. And you know what? I believe him.
When Hillary says she is open to having a conversation, I wonder: for how long is this convo on the table? Until it's no longer pragmatic?
How long am I of interest to her, this woman who is just like my abuela? Until my brown hands vote?
It also makes me very uncomfortable to see all these media conglomerates helping to pave the way to her success at democracy's expense.
Her complicity in this situation doesn't sit well with me. She's here to win; I get it. But with Hillary, I honestly don't know where she draws the line.
I'm not some person who has known these past few months whom she is going to vote for. I was leaning Bernie, but I have seriously questioned myself multiple times.
I donated money to Obama. I can barely bring myself to give money to Bernie. But the more I think about it, the more he's got my vote.
And that's why I #FeelTheBern . Sometimes reluctantly, but increasingly steadfastly. ❤️