All last night I tossed and turned over our conversation. When I cried 'bullshit' in response to your point, nothing of value was disclosed and I recoiled in disgust at myself for falling so far and so quickly from the thinking to which I aspire. I do not think it is trivial to find all this in one word. I know language to be powerful in ways it alone can succeed. When we embark on a sentence it is our use of language that reflects how well our thinking will go.
My lapse in thinking was in part responsible for my sleepless night, but I was also tossing and turning out of worry for you. I noticed your stay in America has daubed the health of your own language. More than often, you've been referring to others as 'assholes' and 'stupid'. I've playfully tried to put those remarks away from my mind, but it has been difficult.
Truthfully, it breaks my heart to hear you pass judgment over another in those words for very important reasons. Those are words that come easily to us when we wish to condemn another but all the same take from us the place to think compassionately about them. In the immediate success of denigrating the person, we are pushed further from our reasons to choose the road of compassion. The very aspect of a person that invites us to call them an 'asshole' takes root in facts about them that are deeply sad. That someone is unthinking, sleazy, money-obsessed or vulgar is perhaps the cruelest obstacle to their flourishing and participating in a humanity that makes them precious alongside us. If another behaves so poorly, we may say they deserved to be called an asshole. The remark rightly touches on their failure to take responsibility for their wrongful behaviour. Yet, do we not equally have a responsibility for how we choose to stand in relation to their task? It does not clearly follow that us spectators, in all the ways we too are fallible, ought presume the task of dealing another their 'just deserts'.
It seems equally within our reach to always encourage the ways they are remarkable and lead by example against the ways they fall short of themselves. It is just harder to meet the weakness of another in this way. It is when I hear the enjoyment in ones judgmental tone that my heart sinks precisely because it is taking pleasure in the fallibility of another much weaker than yourself. I do not find the weakness of others pleasurable. That is where my difficulty in the face such condescension lies.
After calling your idea 'bullshit', it saddened me that my words went no higher and I could think only very plain thoughts. In that way, I passed on the opportunity for our minds to soar into the rich and curious world we share together. I fear for this world in the face of such language. Forgive me my lapse.
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