Today would have been four years with my ex. It seems crazy that it's only been a year since we've broken up. I can gladly say that I can finally think about him without getting upset. It's nice.
On other news, last night I tried DMT for the first time. I popped molly in the car on the way to smoke the DMT too, so of course I was feeling good as hell. It was such an amazing experience. I was with my ex boyfriend's roommate, his friend, my current boyfriend, my drug dealer, and another guy. We all went to my dealer's dorm room and smoked the DMT out of a nectar collector. We first watched the guy who got the DMT to take a hit and see how he felt. As soon as he took the hit he was immediately quiet and looked absolutely gone. After he came back we all got in on it. As soon as I exhaled the DMT everything slowed down and I started feeling such a good sensation all over my body. I felt so relaxed and at ease. Then as soon as I started to look around I had crazy triple vision and everything seemed upside down. Everything and everyone was muffled besides a ringing sound in my ear. I also felt like there were voices, but to be honest, I'm not sure if it was from the DMT or if it was the people in the room talking. Every time I looked to see who was talking everyone was slumped on the beds and chairs. It's exactly what "opening your third eye" seems like it would be. It was just such a great experience, and it only lasted five minutes. The taste of the DMT reminded me of a hospital due to how sterile it was. After about fifteen minutes, the whole group decided to take another hit. After the second hit, I wasn't having visuals nearly as intense as the first time, but it was still a great feeling. I wanted more instantly, I've never had such a craving for a drug, but it just felt so fucking good. I took a very small hit once we got back to the car and then ended the night with a few blunts, joints, and bowls. A great last weekend of my freshman year of college.