We've pretty much delineated all our expectations that first time we went out alone. You were very strategic. Even from the start. You know when to hold your horses, you know when to fire. Remember you appeared with diapers on one hand and a book on the other? And when I approached you, you opened your mouth to ask, "Where are the others?" To which I gladly said, "Oh, they were busy,". That moment, all I can think of is how much of an asshole you are, asking me of other people when you left me with an impression that it was supposed to be a 'date', friendly date or study date but still a date and not some group study or whatnots. But that night and all the nights we went out to eat and 'study', we talked about anything and everything like we've known each other for years, like we already have some secret group of two, like we are a true couple only without the eight letters needed to cement the foundation already built. I know that you are true but I also feel that you are terrified. Believe me when I say that I am just as anxious. But then I just realized how much I like to prove to you that you don't have to mask everything because I will never emasculate you for being such a romantic. I will never you make you feel inadequate because you are even far too much of a man than all of the jerks I dated combined. I wanted from then on, until now, for you to never feel any insecurity about my affection or even about yourself. You are more than enough.
Now, as we face another guessing game, I want you to know that I am also insecure. I also sometimes feel inadequate. I also want to feel I am a girl, to let my femininity blossom beyond my boyish ways. I want to know where I stand in your life or if you have any affection at all. I want to be secure about myself. I will never be able to compete with her memories but please assure me I don't have to. Let me know I am more than enough.