today you apologized and i'm afraid it's the last time. that's a funny thing to be afraid of. but i'd rather have you there to apologize than not have you there at all. i didn't know i felt so strongly about you and for you. i didn't know i'd be so upset when i lost you. i went into this knowing what would happen to me. and i wanted you to know too, so i told--warned you. you knew; did you forget? i don't know. but i did what i could to make sure you were aware, and yet here i am. crying. again. i was honest from the start. and i'm still here crying.
i'm always here crying.
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