Morning A. Good morning maybe. The current battle is this: My heart called a 'family meeting'with my head after just 4 hours of sleep. Started racing and skipping beats and things. My head is very upset to be awake but is being very passive aggressive. Full of things and feelings but refusing to communicate them. My eyes are innocent parties in this strange ordeal and are crying in protest. My sinuses don't know what the heck is going on or why they are being flooded. My heart keeps pushing. Pushing for answers, some response at all but my brain isn't having any of that. Not even trying to hear what my heart has to say. As for me i'm lying here amidst this very dysfunctional, forced actions and reactions. Wondering why I can think enough to feel like my brain and for lack of a better explanation I'll say my soul... why they feel like two separate entities. I feel pretty ok. I'm bothered by so little sleep, I know I'm going to look a bit rough around the edges at work today but that's just that. I knooowwwwww the world isn't coming to an end and my heart is being silly. I know what's up with my brain but well, I don't feel that it's my place to interfere. Trying to wrap my mind and that one. Is it my mind I'm trying to wrap? Am I going to be crying at work? I think I may have been crying yesterday. I think listening to music might be perilous today. I think I am deeply hurting because of being misrepresented in something that I did not need to be brought into yesterday. I don't think I'm going back to California any time soon, but of course that's all speculation. Don't really know because it's none of my business. All I want to do is catch up on my reading, do some studying, that sort of thing. My alarm is going off in 3 minutes. 2 minutes. Negative 1 minute. Maybe I didn't set my alarm after all. Love you more than most.