05/14/2017-- Mother's Day.
This is to the mom who has emotionally abused me for ninteen years. This is to the mom who had me switch schools every six months. This is to the mom who I watched overdose on heroin when I was in fifth grade. This is to the mom who has neglected me my entire life. This is to the mom who couldn't support my brothers and I. This is to the mom who I let scar me for life. This is to the mom who never showed up to anything I was in. This is to the mom who would fight with my brother every night. This is to the mom who was also emotionally and physically abused her entire life. I don't feel bad for you, not today at least. You decided to pick substance abuse over your children. You decided to give my brothers and I unstable homes because you wanted drugs instead. You have uprooted me over 20 times, yet I still tried to wish you a Happy Mother's Day because you are, in fact, my mother. I should be thankful for you raising me and praising you for such a wonderful job you did, even though you were an addict, but I can't. You could've done so much better, but you chose not to. You chose drugs and men over your own children, and that is one of the most selfish things a mother could do.
On Friday you chose to get into a fight with me, expecting to win. I'm done letting you win, though. For ninteen years you've always had to have the last word. You always had to be right. You always had to be on top. But, this Mother's Day I have decided that I am done letting you win. You have hurt me for the last time. I haven't cried in months, but on Friday you broke my streak. I went from crying every single day for years, to not crying hardly at all since I decided to move out. I finally understand why I was so depressed, because it was you. It was always you.
Today I texted you happy mother's day, and you insisted on fighthing. So, I fought back. I'm not going to let you win anymore. Not on mother's day, not on any day. I'm not sorry for fighting with you, but I am sorry that you chose to fight with me. I mean, I did learn how to fight from the best, right?
So mom, this is to you. Happy Mother's Day.