Today I did the most incredible thing you never thought was capable of me,
I let you go.
maybe I'm prematurely speaking of things
I haven't fully come to terms with yet and
maybe this letter is really foolish of me -
you have a funny way of almost wanting me to fail -
but this time I don't think so.
I struggle with holding on to things
a little too tight
for a little too long;
I guess that's why me being ready for this thing to breathe,
to live, for it to fly...
you can see why I think I'm ready.
at first this was a letter to you - my worst but best memory; all along I'm realizing that it's meant to be a letter to myself
to remind me
not to let the next time happen.
I feel bigger than the 'self' you let me trap myself to be.
Bigger than the decisions I didn't fight to make for myself, than the friends I really didn't want to lose and the dreams I never wanted to lose hope for in the first place, today,
feels like the past four years have been a dream and I'm pressing resume on the rest of my life, I want you to know that I respect you but
the time I spent loving you was
far too much and you know it,
call me selfish but I refuse to give this one thing to somebody who never knew me, or deserved to, in the first place.