When I was younger, I was convinced monsters lived beneath my bed. I’d never seen them, but any inkling of sound or unusual shadow would send me running to my makeshift fallout shelter. Two cupboard doors and a flashlight tucked between two shaking knees seemed like adequate protection against them. Now that I’m older, I know monsters are real. I’ve seen them. They don’t live underneath beds, they dwell in our hearts. Now, I fight my own monsters and keep them locked away in prison cells.
When I was younger, I was scared of heights. I would control my fear, by avoiding them, ensuring I'd never give myself the opportunity to encounter them. Now that I’m older, I’ve learned that “heights” are just another word for “obstacles”, and sometimes you do need to jump. If you land face down into the depths of the sea, you still have the power to swim to the surface.
When I was younger, I used to be afraid of the dark. I could never accept the change of darkness, I'd sleep with my flashlight on. Now that I am older, I’ve realized that “darkness” is just another word for “uncertainty” and that instead of trusting a flashlight, you have to trust in your own light - the one you carry within yourself.
Getting older doesn’t mean that you will outgrow the things that used to scare you. It’s about learning and understanding your fears - not trying to escape them.
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