Packing my bags and tryingt o get ready for NYCC. I've never been in a huge comic con I couldn't control before. I'm used to FIQ because there is always the VIP room and basically I hide under the table until the show is over. This time I need to be a regular visitor, and there are about 50 people I need to meet and talk to. It's not going to be easy for a hermit monk like me.
Adding to the angst and anxiety is the fact that I spent a lot of time working on a 8 page zine I want to give to some artists as an advertising for our show, to convince them to come as guests in 2015 or 2017 -- and after so much trouble and spending a lot of money on printing the color covers, turns out I flipped the covers and now they look like a manga magazine. But fuck it, I have no time or money to fix this.
I also had problems with buying the books I wanted to get autographs in. The Strand Bookstore fucked my order up and lost everything, and now some of the books I wanted are already sold out. I'm not sure there's enough time to buy they again and have them collected at their store by Tuesday morning as I originally intended.
But I'm old and bitter and I might as well just give up on it altogether. Maybe I should just go to the show as soon as I can and talk to people and see where it leads. Being prepared is different from being anal-retentive and having schedules and stuff--being away from home is always a chaotic system, you can't really control it, all you can do is prepare yourself to survive (bring the right gear, clothes, enough money) and throw yourself into situations that will catalyze the serendipities of this life.