I meed to document this dream because i cant stop thinking about it and im... Idk what word to put here... I guess... Not enlightened or necessarily scared, but more aware i guess of what i would do?
Okay so. Meme team usually has sleepovers (rach jake and i) and thats what we were doing in the dream. Except it wasnt rach because in the dream i was texting her. But there was someone else there with myself jake and this one girl in my english class, katie.
So the mystery person goes to sleep and sidenote, irl there was a time that jake liked me and it got super uncomfortable for me because those feelings werent reciprocated and he was super touchy the entire time. He wouldnt do anything inappropriate ever, he isnt that kind of person, but he would try to find every chance to sit by me and just so happen to touch my legs or my arm, things like that. Back to the dream, jake and i were the only two left awake. Usually irl this is what happens. So then in the dream jake asks me something like, "lets set our alarm music to toxic together." I wasnt down and i said lol no jake im not doing that and he said something like, "why not? Soon we will be in college and there wont be many ways for us to connect." So i fake agreed and then this is where i want to clarify that this is a dream and didnt happen bc im getting weirded out typing this that my brain would even conjure something like this, but then in my dream, and this felt so real i thought it was, and jake like sort of wrapped his legs around mine and i was like ok w/e typical weird jake and then he put his head on my chest and again i was like haha ok like.... Weird but typical weird jake.
And then i was on my phone still and on imessage and i opened rachaels chat because irl i text her when i get uncomfortable and she gives me immediate advice. So in dream i open her chat and begin to tell her im feeling weird and then she says "why whats wrong" back to me
And then in dream world jake shifts positions and all of a sudden im being pinned down on the bed and being taken advantage of. So i start freaking out and i still have rachs chat out and i start to tell her to come help me and then i like freeze up and dont know what to do. Like im not participating w jake im not encouraging it i didnt ask for it, and then things get worse and im literally about to be raped and i finally tell jake to stop and he does and i ask him to leave and then the katie girl is in my bed and i ask her what happened and if her bf did that would she let him, and she said like well i wouldnt like it but boys have different needs
So then transition im in ziols room bc idk i guess im comfortable around him and im not looking at jake and then ziols does a game with us that involves drawing pictures and i drew a faded elephant and it held significance in the dream but now i cant remember. So then we do an activity where the class like strips nude but no one can see each other and we are all told to draw something now that we have no barriers. I forget what i draw.
Then after class i almost tell rach but i dont have the heart to tell her. So i go to waylon instead and ask him to hang out and hes like haha why sure lets go eat and then im like no lets go somewhere more private so i can tell him what happened. I dont think i told him but idk it was like now i know without actually knowing and thats dumb to say but w/e